peace out

my mom came into my room and told me that we were going on some picnic with all the cousins and stuff. nobody wanted to go though so we were al yelling- so they decided theyll just go on a picnic with the parents and all the kids can do wtvr they want that day b.c theyr fed up with our complaining- wow best punishment ive ever gotten. so me brandon andrew and jason got into swimsuits and went to the pool. by the pool there was like tons of kids our age b.c there was some kind of school trip there- and we were making friends with all them. then we hungout there and then played some football and tennis. got a good workout. and tanned.

it was time for the holiday to start soon which meant get all fancy so we could go down for prayer with a bunch of other rich familys and look nice, then have a meal outside, and then do what we want. so i showered, did my hair and put on a nice dress. we all went down and sang and all that stuff. then the meal was just fucked up- all the stupidass cousins, but some cool ones- so we talked and did regular shit. then jason told me and brandon to come to a party that night he was having at his friends penthouse. score.

so i got on a really hot outfit i bought before the holidays and we took ricks car and went off. it was prety close by. we got there and there was like a lotta kids already there- drinking, dancing, smoking...the usual. so i was drinking and i h.u and went to 2nd with this kid james. i didnt even no wtf i was diong or y i did. so stupid and i miss joshua. i needed to tell him. and it was too loud to talk outside and too late! cazy late already. where did the time go? so i looked around for brandon and found him drunk off his ass dancing crazy, found jason h.u with some chick. i was asking if we should go yet (still prety dam drunK)and jasons like yea man my dad called me fliping the shit that we took his car! hes gonna fucken kill us all- literaly. so we were like holy shit and we ran outside and jumped in the car. and we started driving. jason was driving and drunk. holy shit i dunno wut we were thinking ahhh! a cop was like tailing us the hole time. but we had this other kid dave in the car with us b.c we told him wed give him a ride home. so we were like holy shit dave n jason switch places. so he jumped in the drivers seat. but as he did the car crashed into a mailbox. and the car turned around and skidded on the street. soo fukn scary. and the cop stopped and told dave to get outa the car. we were all hiding in the back. so dave got out and the cop gave him a breathalizer test= but he wasnt drinking. so he said he better get home now and not be driving late again. was prety nice. so dave drove the rest of the way and finaly we got to the hotel. and me jason brandon and dave smoked up outside. b/c we were all fucken going crazy. drunk n high together~ not good. we didnt realize wut we were doing so we went into the hotel and my mom and rick were there and they noticed we were drunk n high. and they started fliping out and my mom ws yelling like "why am i the worst parent?! i cant do anything right. now all my kids are fucked up" so emabressing- didnt eevn notice at the time. and rick was like hunny go upstairs ill deal with them. and the took us into a rooom (minus dave-hu had ran to his room by now)and started yelling at us soo loudly and really scary and he was like u guys r fuck ups! ur going with ur mom to AA tomarrow. and ur going there for awhile. and no more partys and u needa check everything by me! ur not being trusted. and brandon was like "ur not even our fucken dad! shutup fuker!" and he got pissed and punched him really hard. and he yelled for what seemed like hours. finally he stormed out and slammed the door. and we were like guys wtf this sux what do we do? and im like yo can we just get the fuck outa here. get on a plane and leave n shit. we all agreed it was the best idea. so we did that and got the fuck outa there. took ricks money he left us, took the car, our luggage and in festivitys of the holiday- got on a plane back to new york! we all kinda just pased out on the plane. got off and were like shit face where do we go? our apartment was locked and we didnt want mom to know we were there. so we got into a cab and there was only once place to g0- dads house. mite be a little awkward for jason- being that he was my dads ex-wifes new almost step kid. but o well. my dad let us in and made us coffee and told us to get showerd. and wen we were done we told him everything. EVERYTHING. and he was so comforting, suggling me into his arms and stroking my hair. like old times. i love him. he was saying we shouldnt do crazy stuff like that, and beyond stupid to get into a car drunk! but he knows our lived are hard and he had a tough childhood and did stupid stuff also. he lost his best friend to drunk driving- and he didnt want us to do anythng like that. ever ever again. and we said we knew it was stupid. and we all just talked forevr. then jason and brandon fell asleep and my dad said he had some work to do. so i went outside to the balcony and called joshua. i didnt realize how scared i was to tell him until i heard his voice. "hey babe! where have u been?" he sounded so happy to hear from me and i just wanted to be with him. "ive been in florida! with the family. beyond fucked up. i needa tell u ...alot.." he said hes in the city now- so he could come over. so he came to my dads house and we went to my room. i told him everything about rick and the cousins and family, and partys and finaly about doing stuf with another guy and what i did that night. and he yelled at me like crazy. it was even scarier then rick- because i actully cared sooo much what he thought. and he yelled that i was so selfish to put myself in that position0 if anything happened to me id let so many people down and hurt so many people. and i knew he was right. he said he cared much more about that then any stupid h.u with another guy. and i started crying hystericly. and all the pressure of everything that was going on in life just fell on me at that moment. and i didnt have alchol or drugs to get me threw it. but i had joshua. and his hugs and kisses on my forehead were the greatest high id gotten in a while. ii just wanted to hold him forever. he comforted me. and we talked more. then we just fell asleep holding eachother.

"yo wake up. were having a meal now. wanna eat?" brandons loud voice screamed threw the open doorway.HELL YES. ahhh food with normal people- its been a while!

AA(A)

i woke up in my hotel bed, looked around. i saw a note on the night table. i read "yo jordan when u get up go down to the breakfast room. arite? siriously! dont go back to sleep! love ya kid."
so i went to the bathroom, threw up like 5 times and then showered. got dressed and went to the lobby to find out where the fuck the breakfast room was. i found it and my family was like taking over that place. eve, parker, brandon, adam and his freinds, and my other cousins (who are aroud parkers age) were sitting at one table. and all the parents were sitting at another- at the opposite side thank god. but i dont know whod i rather eat a meal with- my mom or eve, its a close call. when i got there eves like "nnice of u to show up. rough night?" i really didnt feel like putting up with her shit and good thing for me b.c parkers like "fuck off bitch" it was quite hilarious. hes really outrite about things and the table laughed b.c eves face was in awe. i dont know if anyones said something like that to her face in a while. so then she kinda just shutup and ate her damn holewheet pancakes(ew). so then the rest of us were just talking about stuff for a while. it was fun. then breakfast was over and my mom cake over and told me and the brothers that rick wanted a "getting to know u- day out with us". "ok mom, we havnt even all spent a day with dad in like 4ever and now we have a hole day with this fuckface?" i said. and shes like "either that or u stay here with me and come with me to my AA meeting and w. ur aunt libby". umm ok id rather die. fine wtf wheres he taking us? she said wear ur swimsuits. oo hip hip. we get to see rick in his trunks- my favorite. so we went upstairs and got into our bathingsuits. and i put on shorts and tank and flipflops and went to meet the boys in the lobby. there was a limo waiting outside and we followed rick to it. "why are we taking a fucken limo?" "theres too many people, i didnt wanna sqush in a car". huh? looked around and counted out us 3 +him=4! we got into the limo and there was 5kids already sitting in there. they werent bad looking. rick introduced us as "future step-siblings" o yippy. more kids- thts wut this family needs, NOT. we went around saying our names and ages (so first day of school in a barbie game). the girls were...abby(12), jessica(14), amanda(20) and the boys were andrew(15) and jason(17). so jason was brandons age- omg thats always..fun? these kids didnt seem so bad. i meen i didnt want step siblings but wtvr well c how it turns out. we drove, and talked and fnialy after like an hour we were there. we got out at this ocean place/ and rick brought us over to his boat. it was inasnly gorgeous. it was bigger then some houses, but it was a boat ofcorse. so we all went on and rick and parker and amanda went talk. and then jason and brandon were talking. so i was left with andrew b.c the 2 younger girls went off somewhere. he showed me all around the boat, and turns out he hates his dad more then i do. he said he felt bad for me that i had to come into this family. yea my family was no walk in the park either. but then after our sirious convs he just started being hilarious and we jumped into the water and were joking around. and everythign that came out of his mouth i cuda sworn i peed in the ocean. he was soo fucken funny and really cool. then we went on the boat deck and tanned and he was telling me about this girlfriend he has and he likes soo much but he cheated on her, and he doesnt wanna turn out like his dad or mom (who both cheetd on eachother) and he only cheeted on her b.c he was going threw a really hard time and he was always drunk and high and stupid. but now he knows better and he still didnt tell her. i told him he should siriously tell her soon b.c shes deff gonna find out either way- and if she finds out from someone else..not good!! and he was giving me the 411 on all his other siblings. jason-went to rehab for like 6months and now hes "clean"-not. he really still smokes up sometimes but hes really not so bad with it anymore. abby and jessica are anoying bitches and they get everything they want- b.c they were the youngest with the divorce and everyone feels bad for them so gives them shit. amanda- is a slut, she always has dfferent guys over that shes like fucking up a storm with. and they live with their dad all the time excpet like every other holiday or so they go to their mom in jersey. because the moms not religious at all anymore and she doesnt even like the kids and shes like a pothead, screwup. really sad. then Brandon and jason came in and we all sat and talked for a while. then it was already prety late and we were strving so rick brough out the food he and parker had been grilling. and it was amazing. then we all went into the ocean and on the boat they had all this awsome shit for the ocean. like jet skiis and kayaks and surfboards and all these cool tubes. and they had this trampoline u put in the water and we were all going crazy all over it for like an hour or 2 . but then rick started bitching that my mom was crying at the hotel for some reason s we had to go back. uch!! shes not even here and she manages to ruin it. so we oput everythign back on the boat and got in the limo. everyone has kinad pooped and trying to sleep but rick was havng a shitfit b.c of mom and their mom was calling him for money or somethign i dont even no wtf was going on. but then jason started being like fuck u shutup! and then rick got up and slapped him. and on top of the fact that it was crazy scary b.c ricks huge bodybuilder and that looked like it killed, it was also so awkward- b.c we were like newcomers and they didnt want us seeing this side so soon prob, and we weer all just looking aroudn to se what happens. then amanda started freekin out likke "dad ur sucha fucken moron! these are like ur new kids! u dont do that in front of them and u dont do it to us either! ur sucha screwup!" and then hes like "then dont bring ur mancandy home anymore! where i can hear u fucking threw the wall!!" and they were going crazy, and it was a little a scary/ comforting to see that they werent happy campers either and wen my moms a bitch i wont need to try and hide that in front of them. then during all this fighting the car fucken brakes down! O.M.G.! so we call AAA to come fix the car. and in meen time theyr all fighting like MAD on the side of the road. everyone hus passing is opening their windows to see whats going on and being like "is everything ok?" and were like "yes yes fine" and then rick is fucken hurting the kids and its insane. and im like get me outa here. then cops drive by and stop- i dunno if someone called them or they just showed up. but they asked what was going on and everyone was kinda just like "uh...". then rick started yelling at the cops b.c they were asking us Qs and he said its not their buisness. and so they were like "ok we gotta take u downtown" and were all like umm ok wtf -leaving kids on the side of the road? thts always hot. (btw the limo driver was like in awe! he didnt no wtf to do and i felt rly bad so me and andrew became bff w. him) so then another cop came to us and asked us if we were ok going home in the limo ourselves and b.c parker was 21 it was fine anyways. and then we needed to answer Qs like was rick drunk ? or high? and it was wierd. and so were just like wtvr its fine, were fine, bye. so then rick was gone, and we were all just like ok sorry people tht was fucked up. and abby and jessica weer crying hystericly b.c theyr dad jsut got taken away and they didnt no wut was happening and i felt rly bad for those little bitches. so we were all comforting them and being like dont worry hes coming back they just needed to ask him somethign. and wtvr finaly AAA came and new limo came and AAA fixed the other one while we went home in the other limo. dead tiered from all tht. so we all fell asleep in the ride. and during the ride i opened my eyes and it looked adorable. jason and brandon were sprawled out on the floor in the middle. abby was lying on parker(OMG SO CUTE) and abby was on amanda and andrew was conked out on the side thing and my legs were up his shoulder. we looked like on big happy family! ahhh if only people knew what just happened.
got back to the hotel and my mom was crying b.c of soemthing that happened at AA but she couldnt even tell us b.c she had to run out to the poilice station to see what was going on with rick. so i went to call D and M to tell them what was going on but i coudnt b.c my cell was dieing so i ran up to charge it. and then i looked up my numbers from last nite from random guys so i called the first number and this guy picked up and hes like "yea i cant rly talk now its kinda crazy..." and im thinking crazy...party? so im like "whats going on?" and hes like "nothing my dad kinda just went to the police station" and im like "JASON? omg this is this jason! hahaha!" and hes like what??? so i ran to the lobby (stil on the fone with him) and im like "hello" into the fone wen im rite in front oof him. and hes like hahaah thats hilarious ! and what are the odds? OMG FUNY. then we all discussed what we should do tonight b.c we all decided no drinking! 2 much of tht. so we deicded on checking out the hole hotel- first dot he workout room and pool and then the hotel movie theatre. so me brandon andrew and jason went around the hotel and hungout. and we were having fun. and then we went outside for a walk and we were walking. and we sat in some random place and it was gorgeous with all the palm trees. but we were all about to die discussing how we dont know what the fucks gonna happen with this marriage and everythings all fukd up. and jason took out his weed stash and started smoking up and all andrew took and brandons like fuck it im sorry but i havnt done it in 2months and i need some. and so im like yno what why the fuck not? so we al sat there and got high and it was relaxing. id done it like once before for a little but poeple say u dont even feel it the first time. this time i felt it. and it was good. and we all just talked, high, for an hour or 2...or 3. and then i feel asleep. and i opened my eyes b.c i felt myself moving and i realized jason was holding me and running -and i looked and i saw red and blue flashing lights behind us. i just smiled and went back to sleep.
BZZZ BZZ BZZZ the alarm clock went off! It was 10 fucken aM! i looked around and jason brandon and andrew were all asleep on the floor. i just put my head down...

lucky number 7

so i played tennis- doubles. me and brandon vs. mom and rick. we kicked their asses which was so fun b.c rick was trying too hard! then he played it all "arite good job guys" as if he let us win. and my mom was wearing as close to nothing as u can get for playing tennis and her boobs were bouncing up a storm. i wanted to puke- me and brandon were being such bitches. like passive agresive mean-ness. like wed keep beinging up dad! and it was hlarious.
dinner time. my mom said she wanted to have a family dinner out. parker (21 yr old brother) was coming in from brown for a few days also. omg so wierd i havnt eaten, let alone been with, my mom and my 2brothers all at once in 4EVER. anywho we were going to some fancy resteraunt. so i got on one of my nicer dresses and heals and went to meet the fam downstairs. my brothers looked all nice and dressed up, as was rick but who cares and my mom was wearing a pretty dress (for someone my age, a bit revealing especialy for someone with implants the size of my head) and if people were watching from afar we deff looked like one big happy family. hardly what this was.
dinner was....FUCKEN STUPID. they sat us at table 7. around us were all these fancy shmucks who looked like they steeped outa stepford for christ sake. i wasnt in sucha bad mood at that point. i thought it could be good, yno a guy to get my mom outa my hair, she could use getting layed- sex makes her happy- which is good for me. us kids reunited was fucken hilarious. we were being so funny and doing the hole passive agressive thing again. classic. asked rick the most awkward qs we could think of. about all his previous rlationships...his intentions...if he thought our mom was "someone hed tap"(to quote brandon)...omg he was dieing the hole night (not of laughter). then it was their turn to piss us off. my mom opened her purse and starting shuffling under the table- pulls out her hand and BAM theres a diomond the size of her tits on her ring finger. HOLY FUCK. shes beaming being like "rick poped the question earlier! arent u thrilled?!" rick was all smug looking. then they started making out. and thats when all us kids couldnt help flipping the shit. "what the FUCKEN FUCK!!! u like just officaly divorced dad! u cant do that!" "holy shit! when did this all happen" "no fucken way! this isnt happening!". their expressions changed in a matter of seconds, as did the expressions of just about everyone in the resteraunt! my mom then flipped out like "were in a 5star resteraunt u cant just make a scene like this!" what did she expect us to do be like "o wow nice, im happy for u! yay lets all dance and sing and shed some tears". ummm fuck no. "does dad know?" . "he already knew we were dating. its not his buisness anyways. were over" . were not! were still both of ur kids. its not just over u dumb fuck. "how long have u 2 dumb fucks been dating anyways?" haha thinking back we did cause quite a scene, but this is no time to laugh..."7 weeks". umm ok? "ive had hangoers longer then that!" omg i love parker. ive missed us kids revolting like this. good times. so basicly rick didnt no wut to do so he was telling us to calm down! wtf ur not my father, ur nothing to me! dont even try and tell me what to do. my mom cant even do that! we started the yelling fit again and then like 10waiters surround our table and bring a big cake with sparklers that says "happy engagment sugarlips" on it! apprently my moms nickname is now sugarlips. i wanna kill myself sometimes. and they sing for what seemed like 7hours! i smeared the word sugarlips and put all the frosting on my moms nose. she freeked out and ran to the bathroom to wash it off. hahah motherfucker. then while she was in the bathroom we all just death started rick while shoving cake down our throught. everyone in the resteraunt got a show if ive ever seen one. then when my mom came back they said were all going to some huge casino that rick owns tonight. wow hes rich, surprise. so we went to the casino and rick and the mother were all over eachother, taking public display of afection to a hole new level. and they were talking to all these big, famous, imporant people so me and the bros decided to go play some poker and shit. so we asked my mom for some cash to bet with. and rick gave us each $300. umm ok well take it but dont think we like u any better u dipshit. so i wanted to play something easy and my bros are into intense texas hold em and stuff- so they went to the intense place and i went to the area with tables where u just pick numbers and shit. i was walking and this guy started like breething down my neck so i turned around and hes like "can i buy u a drink?" and im thinking that he cleerly knows the way 2 my heart- so im like "sure". he didnt look old enough to be let into a casino so i asked. turns out hes 18 and his dad is partners with rick and like also owns this place. so it was cool and we were just hanging out. walking and talking. i didnt really give a shit if i lost all ricks money so i just put it al on black 7. and woohoo for me b.c i won. turns out im not that bad at this and i like doubled it to $600. then we got some more drinks. i realized i didnt even no this kids name. "o ha, yea names, who needs those. im oliver. u r..?" "im jordana, but ppl call me jordan". then we talked some more, his mom died so it was him and his dad here and his dad was always busy. felt bad. i didnt exactly feel like going threw the hole family matters with this kid i just met. so i didnt, i was just sympathetic and said i know how it feels and stuf like tht. then hes like u wanna get outa here its crazy loud. and i did want to- so we went outside and i texted brandon that id be back soon and not to like leave without me. then me and oliver went outside and we were walking down this beach place and this yacht was parked by the dock. this kid came running off and hes like "oliver! fucken dude! what r u doing here! i thought u cudnt make it" and hes like yea my dads event is rite by here. and so then this kid pulled us on the boat. and there like 200 drunk,1/2 naked kids, grinding and shit. so i was like hey what the hell, why not. so i took couple of shots and i was the only one wearing a fancy dres (or any dres for that matter) so i pulled it off and fit rite in. started grinding. and it was so fun, and freee!!! knwoing that i wouldnt get a bad, or any, repuation for this. i would never see any of these kids again and if i did they wouldnt know it, 2 ddrunk 2 see me straight. so then these 5 guys came over to me and this girl who i was grinnding next to and they picked us up. and they threw us off the side of the boat into the ocean. and they jumped in after us. and there like 10kids swimming out there. and everyone was just cracking up, floating, drunk! ahhh . then i got pullde back on the boat somehow and we were all just doing body shots off eachother and dancing like crazy. i gave like 5 guys my number and got theres. told them id be here another couple of days and they promised to call if there was anything interesting going on. then i herd someone screaming my name. tunred around and it was oliver. hes like "we should really get back to the casino." omg he was rite. it had already been like 3hours since we left. so he showed me where the bathroom was and gave me a towel. i dryed off as much as i coould and put my dress back on. we went back the casino. and my mom told me i reeked of alchol. and i said so do u. and thats pretty much all that went down. then i txted brandon and he told me where he was. so i told oliver id see him around and went to find my bros. holy shit. parker made like 1,200 bucks. brandon lost just about everything but $20. so he gave me the $20 and said i could go play the penny slots and shit like that. i gave parker my $600 and told him to use it and make me some more. so i went to the penny slots and clearly lost the money b.c its like impossible to win those. went back to the bros and parker was doing awsome. then we finaly left the casino at like 3. and i was dead tiered and i felt the hangover kicking in already! so it was about time. fell asleep on parker in the car (aw i missed that kid). then i felt a jolt and he said we were by the hotel

*back to reality*

so the next few days in the hamptons were great. relaxing, fun filled days. hanging out by the pool. good food. good, long talks with the girls. and guys. it was fun.

then i got a call from my mom. she said i had to fly out to florida for te 2nd days of the holiday. so naturaly i said no. but then she said she was gonna take away all my shit (thats prety much all she has over me and she knows it, so she always plays that card-anoying!). so i had to order a car service and freekin leave. my vacation was so fucken relaxing-not 4 long. so when i got home my brother was there, packing. he said we had ticket for that night at 7. wow once again? no time for anything. so i had already had most things packed from the hamptons so i just shoved a few clean bras and underwear and some fancy dressed in a bag. knowing the family we would probubly be attending some black tie dinner party. fucken ew.

we get to the airport and check our bags, find our gate. on the plane. it was actully really nice. i realized i hadnt been with brandon -just us 2- in a long while. we talked alot, first he told me my parents split was offical- divorce and all. i guess a lot can happen while ur gone. bitter-sweet sadly enough, b/c 1)why wasnt i informed earlier? parents care 2 call or maybe leave a post-it "hey by the by, were divorced"? i dunnno i guess not. 2)finaly! it was kinda releaving. knowing their relationship status. and not having them needa be fake in public and realize this family isnt like woohoo were all lovers.

then he was telling me about lauren ,his gf. and asking about all my boy drama. and it was nice. we were talking about mom and how i hate her but hes all like "she has a hard life also, u needa respect her still" and it was pissing me off, i know its true. she has a lot on her plate, but as a parent ur not supposed to take that all out on ur kids. and shes a lying, cheating, backstabbing bitch of a person anyways. then we got to florida and saw some dude standing there with a sign "kingston". wonderful. so we got in the car and drove up to miami.got the foutain blue and it was like 1am, sometihing like that. my mom was in the lobby hitting on some 19year old employee. then she starts screaming for us from across the dam lobby. guess te hole "i dont know u" card wasnt gonna work to well, there goes plan A. onto plan B...to late. she was already over by us, kissing us and being all "motherly". she gave us our key- room 632. we were off. nice room, mini bar..wed deff be needing that. we unpacked and watch tv- fell asleep somewhere in between wheel of fortune and semi homemade cooking with sandra lee?

loud knocks. i shot up. opened the door- its mother. "come i want u to see everyone. theyr all waiting by the pool. get ready and come." umm ok? its fuken 10am hus up and by the pool? so i smile and nodded...and went back to sleep. but i gues she knew my plan b.c she made the hotel send us an alarm like 500times in the next 2min. so we got up and got dressed. woohoo.

went to the pool. wow a lot of people, searched threw the crowd and found my mom- hitting on the pool boy, great! then she spotted us. dragged us over to a group of people. holy crap it was my cousins. well hello famiy reunion! was not quite ready for this. i have cousin my age eve. she is a huge ass snob. i fucken hate her. shes not even a cool snob, shes just boring and rich and ms.plastic surgery. (noticed her new nose job-for the 4th time) and she looks down on everyone. i went over to be all fake, being the nice person i am. "heyy omg whats up long time no see! hows life?" "great.ive herd things about u.." um ok? she looked me up and down, making that "ok slut in the skimpy bikini" face. so i just smiled and walked away b.c she is an odd person. then i saw my cousin adam by the pool,hes a year older then me (brandons age) and he was w. brandon and some guys who i found out were his friends from school. cool, said hi. moved on. saw my aunt libby who looks more like a barbie everyday. it was great fun. then my mom called me over. "jordana baby i want you to meet my.." "boyfriend"-finished off this tan(fake, no doubt) buff guy. ok last i checked u were married to my father and now ur showing me ur new,ass grabbing, body building, boyfriend? umm ew?? "o hi. so ur the lucky man huh?" they both laffed and i bounced right outa there. went over to my brother to see if he met this dude. he didnt but my mom was waving him over to meet him now. good luck.

then adam came over. and he asked me iif i liked my moms boyfriend. i love how my cousin that i see once every few years knows about all this before me. i was sick. i said i didnt know b.c we didnt talk yet. we started telling me about his dad and mom going threw a divorce and all this shit and we got talking and it was all so fucked up- there was only 1 q left to ask "wheres the bar in this place?" so we went to the bar by the pool and ordered every drink on the menu. drinking at 11am? classy, i know. then his frind scott came over and asked if we wanted to swim. and adam went but i felt like being alone.

so i went to the lounge chairs and tanned. drifted off. "whos up for tennis?" someone said in my ear. opened my eyes. uch it was my moms new beau. "rick is it?"

Hamptons 101

so we played all the classic car games, talked, and slept- we were all pretty dam tiered from this week . its been long!
then we got there and dropped the guys off at Js house. and then me d and m went to Ms.! her parents werent coming up until the next morning. so wthe boys called and we told them to come over wenever.
so that night the boys came and we were hanging by the pool. so ofcorse- knwoing them- they double teamed us and threw all 3 of us in the pool. in our clothes. but im not gonna lie- i was kinda happy, b/c the weather was awsome and the pools gorgous. then we were swimming around being like "the waters amazing!" so they just jumped in. there was a bar outside so we cracked the code and stole all the alchol. haha i dont understand why our parents havent realized they needa lock these things up better with us around. so we drank and jumped back in the pool! (smart i know). and then our clothes were weighing us down- so they just kinda came off. and most of us just skinny dipped. felt amazngly free. plus no1 cared , alchol in our system- didnt realize. and were all so close, i think wev prob all seen eachother naked. well now we have anyway.
we got outa the pool eventualy and light a fire in the fire pit. and it was soo nice. we roasted marshmellows and ordered sushi. all collapsed on lounge chairs into our loves arms and just kinda drifted into sleep.
"we leave u alone for one night, and this is what we come home to?" Ms moms high pitched voice bursted in from across the lawn

Vaca

sukkot: jewish holiday when you build huts outside. sit in them to eat. a good excuse for vacations.

anyway sukkot vacation was almost here and i had no clue wtf to do. i sure as hell didnt want to go down to florida with my family. and my brother was going with his girlfriend somewhere. which left me to fend for myself. so obviously i called M and D to see what they were up to. turns out they werent exactly psyced to be with their familys either. so M said me and D should come to her house in the hamptons. everyone who lives around here has houses in the hamptons. even if you dont want one there- you kinda just needa get one so you`ll be in with it. pathetic? very.
anyways it sounded good, way better then anything i had planned so far (which was nothing). so we had a day off from school before the holiday started so we were gonna drive up later that night- around 8 or 9.
so my family had already left for florida so it was nice and quiet. i slept late, took a long bubble bath. realxed. finaly. turning out to be a pretty good vaca afterall. perfect relaxing day, and whats one thing a perfect relaxing day cant be complete without? shopping. so i went to the usual stores and looked around. ended up buying a shitload of stuff. i dont even know why, but it looked good- and its vacation. so i went home and plopped on my bed- all the shoppping had pooped me out. next thing i know my phones vibrating and i look and its already 7:00! shit so much to do! so i ran outside b.c i needed mani-pedi for the holiday! so i quick got one, ran home. jumped in the shower- shoved my hole closet into a bag. called M back (was the that called at 7) and she said shes picking me up in 5. so i went downstairs and grabbed coffee and then by that time- she was there. nice. jump in the car- Ds already there...and other people are also. there was jake and joshua and connor and ian! im like wtf are u doing here? and turns out last minute there going to joshuas house in the hamptons- which is close to Ms so yay. they also told me that rebecca, marenelli and few other people are going also just there wasnt rooom in the car so their driving up with jen.

saturday night live

saturday night.
my mothers not home. remember that? yea! so me and brandon decided were throwing partys this week, having how ever many poeple wanna come over whenever. we could fuck up the house, my mom knows were home and i dont really care if she knows whats going on, shes doesnt really give 2 shits i dont think.
so over the weekend we told people to come saturday night. he told the seniors that hes friends with, and i told the juniors. so my brother told me i was in charge on the alcohol- best job, no? so i right away knew who to call.
marenelli came over and we went to a liquor store near me, he had his fake ID, which is really good one. so we got it and picked up some food and stuff. then we went back to my place. and i got dressed. it was more of a chill party, so i wasnt dressed to impress really. just basic hardtail pants and this new tank i bought. it was around 10 something and people started coming. first time it was all my brothers friends, like all them. so i was hanging with them, waiting for my friends to come. and then another knock and theres a shitload of guys i have never seen. i recognized one tho- my brothers friend from the football team. he must have brought all his friends from another school. they were all already drunk, it seemed like. then all my friends started coming and it was awsome. we drank some, people were smoking all sorts of things also. i must have got offered stuff about 100x. all the seniors were cracked out. then people blasted music and we all started dancing and going crazy. it was really fun but after a while i was crazy tired. i wanted to shower so bad but people were practicly fucking in every bathroom. wow walked in a few odd couples. jen, football teams friend(s). ew my brother and his lauren-EW fucken ew! i was dieing. got the hell outa there. and then wen i went back in it was like fuck central. like everywhere u looked people were doing- alot. everywhere u went people were like trying to stick their tounges down ur throught. it was getting g-ross! so i went into my room to change- b.c i was sweaty. people were in my room already tho- so that didnt work out either. so i was walking to my brothers room to steal a shirt or something when guess who i bumped into? JOSHUA. wootwoo. so people were crashing everywhere and im like ok we gotta get outa here.! so i went to the kitched and got the key to my moms room (she thinks i dont know where she hides it! under the phone book, no shit sherlock holmes!). and i took him and went into her room. ew i felt gross at this point so we jumped into the jacuzzi and took the sickest bubble bath of my life. poped open the champagne and drank and talked and...yno. then we were done with the bath and i jumped out and took his wifebeater-haha my plan has worked! he chased me to the bed and we wrestled..naked. oo la la. then he pinned me down and im like "lets do it" and hes like what? really? u siriously wanna? and im like fuckk yea! so i went to my moms bathroom and got a condom. and i pinned him down- ah the tides have turnde. and hes like "no i wanna wait till were sober" and im like ahh fine good point. so we went back into the bath for like an hour and then he picked me up and to the bed we went. i put the condom on him and he grabbed me tight. and it was our wrestling just gone sexier. omg my favorite! aggression.! i just realized that my mom had fucked dudes in that bed... o well add this to the list.

back to that. we did it! finaly! i mean we hadnt been rushing to it, but im a junior i think its ok. for all those speaches my dad, mom, teachers and brothers have given me- it was finaly here. and it hurt at first. but then we did it again and it was amazing. and i loved him more then ever. and then after we were done and i was just lieing on him he whispered in my ear "i love you" and he kissed me. and i said "i love u more" and he said he doubted that. but i dont, but we called it a tie. i wanted to do it a million times, he was jut that amazing. but instead he reached down and got his wifebeater and he put it on me. and we fell asleep like that.

a phone vibrated near me and joshua picked it up. ahh a new morning